Not where I thought I was...

So, I guess I'm not very good at dealing with my true feelings. Over the past month and a half I thought I was dealing with everything pretty well. It hurt, but I was ok. I realize now that I have thrown my energy at everything I possibly could. I haven't let my mind slow down to actually experience the pain. I have learned a lot and grown up a lot, but I'm not over the pain at all. I don't think I've even begun to get over the pain.